Thursday, December 13

Not my souls

It was negative.

Beta HCG <2, hard to misinterpret.

So Plan B, already made an appointment with Professor Shulman, Monday 12.30, and on to sorting out surgically everything that is hindering any chance that I may have of every falling pregnant again.

I was surprisingly fine, I had a tear, Noam was with me (albeit snoring next to me), and then I phoned to make the appointment with the Professor. Then I spoke to the 'donor' and realised that maybe I wasn't really that fine because I was so irritated and short with him, he was at the airport boarding a plane to come back here. I smsed him afterwards to apologise, it is not his fault, there is no-one to blame. It just was not my time, not my soul/s.

Oh and to top it all off, I got a letter from Assuta to say that the 2 left-over embryos that we were hoping to freeze had 'expired'. Another 5 little 'possibilities ' gone.


"Q: In which cases does removal of the fallopian tubes improve the outcome?
A: In recent years, impressive evidence has shown that hydrosalpinx (swollen fallopian tubes, filled with fluid) can reduce chances of implantation. It seems that the reason for this is that the fluid in the fallopian tubes contains inflammatory products that leak into the abdominal cavity and damage the embryo trying to implant itself in the endometrium. In cases of recurrent failure of IVF therapy, the condition of the fallopian tubes should always be assessed using a hysterosalpingogram and ultrasound scan. If the state of the fallopian tubes is very poorly, and might affect the implantation of the embryos, the benefit of their removal should be considered. The removal of oneor both fallopian tubes is performed by laparoscopy, where a laparoscope (a fine telescope) is inserted through an umbilical incision."